| I just copied and pasted this from i geus what i would call my beast diary, which i have on my computer, my i button was not working for some of it so please excuse any bad grammar or spelling anyway i hope you enjoy my stories. Sorry if i ramble on a bit.If you like it let me know and i will send in more of my diary. Hello folks, Not really sure who I am saying hello to here since you should not be reading this, if you are then hello and what the hell are you doing reading this. Well I suppose if I was on someone else’s computer and I came across a document called what this one is then I would be pretty intrigued.) Anyway this is the second draft of this (the first one was deleted along with all of the beastiality porn I had downloaded from the web, an awful lot of stuff, kind of regretting that now because it took me a long time to accumulate not to mention being caught downloading it by several people, and having to explain what I was doing, not an experience I wish to repeat attempting to download more, which I intend to do because I can not get enough of it.) I deleted everything after I was caught downloading images from Beastforum.com by my brother who then went and told my dad, the little grass that he is. After this I felt very guilty as I often do feel about my sexuality (since beastiality is far from being a widely accepted way of living your life) and I went and deleted everything. Also at the time I had a girlfriend who I was not able to tell about my fantasies and who I cared and still do care about very much. I did not want her to find out and I felt guilty for keeping secrets from her so I decided I was going to give up the whole beastiality thing. However since then we have broken up, not because of this but for other reasons and I can not help but feel relieved that she will not find out my fantasies while we are still together as it would hurt her so much. Obviously I am sad that we are no longer together because I love her very much but she would not understand my feelings for dogs and women and so it is for the best she can go and get on her life and be happy and I am now free to explore the world of beastiality and all it has to offer without the fear of hurting those closest to me. And explore is what I intend to do. I want to find a beautiful woman with a beautiful dog and I want to make love with her and for her to make love with her dog and for her dog to make love with me, I want to find that perfect relationship of a girl a boy and a dog.There are things I need to fix first like securing my independence so that I can have my own place where I can keep a dog as well as somewhere where I can have a computer of my own for visiting the online beast community since you don’t just meet others down the pub, we are a rare and beautiful bunch. Once I have this I can use the web to my hearts content without fear of being caught by someone whom I live with although I guess I will have to be very careful of the internet police or whatever they are called (I wonder how much they monitor sites like beastforum.com and if they do what does it take for them to swing into action and come barging into someone’s house in the middle of the night to take them away to the cells along with there computer and whatever else. How big a crime is making love with your dog if your dog wants to make love with you? Its no crime at all since as anyone who owns a dog will know they are more than keen to make love with you and it is more often than not that the human in the relationship is the non consenting partner not the dog as is often the argument against zoophilia. So if a girl or a boy consents to the randy advances of there pet because they gain pleasure from it then everyone is happy and no crime or abuse has taken place. I mean everyone looks happy in those photos, wouldn’t you agree? I know I would be if I was any one of those girls or dogs.Anyways I am kind of ranting on a bit here trying to justify things when I do not really need to because it is a beautiful thing which needs no justifying for those of us who are open minded and happy to share our love with our four legged friends, which is more than I can say for those of us who are narrow minded destroyers of nature (sorry a bit of the conservationist coming out of me there). What I mean to say is that there are those who will understand because they are open minded and there are those who will not understand because they have been to strongly conditioned by our cultures taboo’s.This second draft has very much started of In a different manner to the first but I now intend to return to the theme of the first – my life so far as a zoophile. Well it all began a long time ago about the time when I was reaching puberty, at the time my family owned a farm and as such I was surrounded by animals and of course when that magical time of year came (spring) they would all be fucking like the future of there species depended on it (which it does and which is why I became so fascinated with it, because of what it means to them it is filled with raw energy and passion without a care in the world as to who is watching). I think this is something that everyone is fascinated with although few people would admit it. I remember the road along which I used to walk to school with my friends would go past a field where horses were kept. Some days the horses would just be standing there with there enormous cocks just hanging out in the wind without a care in the world as we would walk past all my friends would point and laugh and make jokes about his huge cock. I would go along with it but more often than not I would arrive at school with an enormous erection over the sight of such a beautiful beast with such a formidable love making weapon, the thought of just standing in his presence while he strode around with his huge cock out or even to touch it filled me with the desire to be able to give him pleasure. Before I go on here I would just like to say that I am not gay, I don’t really find male humans that attractive, however, I am more than happy to have a male dog hump me, I am not quite sure why this is but it just is. As for female humans though that’s a different story, There is nothing more pleasing to my mind than the sight of a beautiful woman, all those beautiful curves, the soft skin and velvety voices, the slinky swaying movement of legs, hips and breasts, big soft lips, firm nipples and eyes that could melt any man or dog for that matter, and the list goes on.So basically what does it for me is a beautiful woman with her beautiful dog and if I could find that I would be a very happy man. In the mean time I have had to make do with just one of these at a time, not that that has been a bad thing I have had some beautiful relationships and stunningly great sex lives with several women and dogs. So I will tell you about some of them now (well those with dogs since I am sure none of my ex-girlfriends would like to be talked about in document about beastiality, where as I do not think the dogs would mind if I talk about our relationships going by there randy behaviour in public places). As you can see by now it is the master of the doggy style who does it for me and the dog and bitch who introduced me to it and its passion were two of the horniest cocker spaniels I have ever known (well the only cocker spaniels I have ever known). It all began one day when I was visiting some of my friends at there farm, I was sitting outside waiting for them to finish there tea or something like that and both of the farmers (my friends dad) dogs were sitting with me. However, they both had something else on there mind, the bitch (Kim) was in heat and the dog (Teil) was more than well up for it. I sat there fascinated and hugely turned on as I watched Teil mount Kim and thrust away for all he was worth. He never quite managed the first couple of times but he was persistent and Kim was more than willing. On his first few attempts to mount her I could see his enormous red cock swelling and desperately trying to find the warmth of Kim’s fanny, I could honestly have sat and watched all day (I think there was something about the fact that they were quite happy to f*** away in front of not caring who was watching which turned me on also). Anyway Teil never got to tie with Kim that day, poor boy, my friend finished his tea all to soon and when he came out with his father his father broke them up because he was not wanting any more puppies which I guess is fare enough. Although I was wishing that they had been eating a twelve course meal. After that I was hooked and I started to spend a lot more time hanging around with this particular friend especially if it meant going to the farm, hoping to catch a glimpse Teil and Kim’s passion again. However such beautiful moments were few and far between due to Kim only being in season once or twice a year. Although saying that she was more than keen almost every time I went up to start humping my leg ( which I thought odd for a bitch since it is usually male behaviour but I was soon to discover what she was getting at. I started to become desperate as I want more of this animal action, I really wanted to be involved in something with so much sexual energy I wanted to give them sexual pleasure, so one day I decided that I would give it a try. I waited for a day when I knew my friend would be out and I walked up to the farm to “visit him” when I got there I knocked on the door and asked if he was about but surprise surprise he wasn’t in. So I went of home again, or so his dad thought, I went to walk the long way home since this was the way past the kennels and to my delight both Teil and Kim were there, both of them came running over to me to give me there usual warm and excited welcome and both of them followed me up the road and away from the farm house without any need to call them. By this point my heart was about to explode, I was so excited yet slightly fearful as well since what if they did not want me playing with there soft bits they could bite my face of or something. Anyway once we were a safe distance from the farm house I walked of the road and into some woods where I took a seat under a big beach tree, both dogs followed me in, I don’t know but it seemed like they knew what I was planing. Both of them came over and sat by me. This was the moment I had been waiting for so long the moment about which I had fantasised for ever it seemed. I began just by stroking both of them as anyone would a dog, giving them a good scratch all over, then gradually I moved down under Teils stomach and began rubbing gradually moving backwards towards his sheath. I was still unsure how he would react to me touching it, my surprise and pleasure were hard to control when I finally did get my finger tips on his sheath, the tip of his cock was already beginning to swell and stick out and he moved to stand in the most accessible position for me to give him a good wanking which I proceeded to do for quite some time. I really was not prepared for the size of his knot though I never knew dogs had this and at first I thought “oh no I have broken the dog”. Thankfully though I had not and infact had done the opposite by making him feel good and like a real MALE with a huge cock for humping things with. He was doing a lot of this while I was wanking him.After a while though he seemed to loose interest which I thought was fair enough since even the best of us males do this after a good session of lovemaking. So I just sat and watched him for a while as he stood there with his huge cock out giving it a good licking ( as I am sure all men wish they could do).Then as if Teil had somehow communicated with Kim to try out this great new sex aid, or maybe just from watching and the smells and sounds she got turned on. She came over to me and grabbed a hold of my arm with both front legs and began to hump away furiously, again I was unsure how she would feel about me touching her soft bits but my hand was in the perfect position between her legs so I gently started to rub her clitoris and insert my finger just a little. This really got her going she nearly pulled my arm of with her vigorous humping, she was panting heavily and making quiet grunting sounds. It did not take long for her to cum as I could feel by the spasm’s in her vagina. After which she would dismount my arm and give herself a good licking, but unlike Teil she was up for a lot more and I thick I must have made her cum like this at least another five times before we were all worn out. Well that is apart from me, to finish things of I had a great wank under this huge tree while both dogs sat and watched me occasionally sniffing or licking my cock as well as there own bits. And that was that I could say from then on I was a real zoophile, I had actually taken part in sexual acts with two dogs at the same time and it was absolutely fantastic. As I walked home I felt like I was floating my head was full of the most provocative images of what I had just done. And that was only the first of many occasions on which I went up to the farm to find that my friend was not in but my two canine friends were. Oh the joys. My relations with both dogs came to an end after only a couple of years as myself and my friend drifted apart as happens- maybe he was feeling le was no longer coming to see him but to see the dogs. Although do not thn that he realsed ths. So as my relatons wth tel and m came to an end found my self havng to loo elsewhere for sexual ntamacy wth dogs. Oppertuntes came few and far between. Whenever came across a dog wanderng about on hs own would try to gve hm a bt of pleasure almost every tme they were more than happy to let me wan them of. Some of these encounters were absoloutly great remember one blac lab met and spent some hours wth behnd some bales had the largest coc had ever seen on a dog and he was more than een to have t seen to. None of these encounters however resulted n longer relatons snce they were justg that chance encounters.One of the most memorable though was after a very hectc and drug fueld nght out clubbng. On leavng the club went wth a few of my frends to an after party at another frends house. On arrvng could not help but notce the two dogs lyng at the front door. One was a cocer spanel and the other am not sure of the breed but he was nd of a tall lany dog wth long reddsh har maybe a red setter.Anyway the party went on well nto the wee small hours and eventually everyone crashed out where they sat. Layng on the sofa wated to be sure that everyone else had fallen asleep and went to fnd the two dogs had seen on gettng to the party. My heart and head were flyng away wth me wth the exctment and a concocton of drugs and alcohol. Found both of them lyng outsde of the bathroom. Perfect thought could just go nto the bathroom wth them both loc the door and have my way wth both of them and let them have there way wth me all nght long. Went nto the bathroom wth the red setter at frst too a seat on the tolet and began to wan hm of he was lovng t thrustng away le there was no tomorrow sprayng hs pre cum all over the place. Ths went on for some tme and then the thought came to what f someone gets up to go to the bathroom (whch was qute lely consderng the amount of alcohol consumed) and standdng watng for me to come out see me emerge with the dog with his huge red not sticking out something which might be quite hard to explain. So I went out of the bathroom and sat in the hall with both dogs and wanked both of them of (probably no safer a place to avoid being caught but better than being locked in the bathroom) for quite a while they both just lay on there backs to let me right in about there cocks. Of the two dogs the spaniel was the smaller but he had by far the fatter and longer knob. I think I must have sat and had a wank with them and then went back to the living room to go to sleep (I think the fear of being caught with a dogs cock in my hand was getting to me). However both dogs followed me through, obviously enjoying there early morning sex session. I sat down on the only free arm chair, the others and most of the floor being taken up by the sleeping forms of my friends and the rest of the party goers. As I sat there the cocker spaniel climbed up onto me his cock was still well out of his sheath, he climbed right up so that his front paws were standing on my shoulders and his cock was right in front of my face. I could not resist such an offer and proceded to suck and lick it until he came, thrusting into my mouth right to the back of my throat making me gag.I could not believe I was doing this in a room full of sleeping people any one of which could wake up at any moment and see me in the most compromising of positions. I decided that it was not worth the risk, but I wanted this night of passion to carry on for as long as possible so I decided to try to find a safer spot to continue our fun. Eventually I managed to find a bedroom that no one was using. I went in with both dogs and continued to play with them well into the morning. Every time I gave the red setter a wank he would start of standing up thrusting away and then he would lie on his back with his legs spread and his cock sticking out like a big red lolly. Every time I wanked of the spaniel he would come and then walk away with his enormous knot and cock sticking out, which he would then proceed to lick clean. Eventually the thought came to me that if I went on all fours they would try to hump me. I can not believe this thought never came to me sooner. I was so excited at the thought that they might hump me like I had seen teil hump kim. So I began wanking of the red setter and when he lay on his back I got down on all fours, naked from the waste down and as if he had been waiting for me to do this all night he quickly got up and wrapped his front legs around my waist and began humping away. I was so excited I almost came there and then. However, he was having a bit of trouble aiming his cock and after a couple of minutes of trying very hard he gave up and dismounted me. Wth such a promsng frst effort there was no way was not gong to try agan so agan waned hm of untl he lay on hs bac and then got on all fours and straght away agan he was up and on me thrustng hs coc at me. Ths tme however he was much more on target and he was qucly nsde me and thrustng wth some vgour. He contnued to thrust for a few mnutes eventually relaxng and just restng on top of me my ass full of hs coc. At that moment had to have a wan because nothng ths sexually exctng had ever happened to me before so dd and had one of the best orgasms ever what wth beng flled wth ths dogs cac whle the spanel sat across the room from me lcng hs huge not. Came all over the floor beneath me and made qute a mess but lcly by ths pont the spanel had become qute nterested n what was gong on and he was qucly there to lc the carpet and my nob clean. By ths tme had been ted to the red setter for at least twenty mnutes and agan the fear of beng caught came to me f someone came nto the room then there would be no explanng away what was gong on as somthng completely nocent. So decded t would be best f got hm of of me. But when tred to push hs coc out realsed that t was stuc was sure that hs not had been fully swollen when he mounted me and therefore t would not enter me but guess t must have gone down some and he managed to snea the whole lot nsde me. At ths pont began to worry a bt for even f heard someone comng could do nothng about gettng out of my comprmsng poston. Wated there for some tme on all fours wth hm stuc nsde of me hopng that eventually he would have had enough and he would deflate and dsmount me. But ths was not to be he was more htan happy to be gettng hs end away and was n no hurry to stop. Decded to go for one last push to get hs not out and wth a lot of effort and strang managed to push hs not out (somthng le dong a sht after not havng had one for a wee magne). And so had now lost my canne vrgnty felt le was gettng somewhere wth my lfe as a zoophle. My fun wth those two dogs went on for hours more no more tyng though just ncase. As left felt a bt gulty for the mess that would have caused wth all the dog cum all through the house but ths was far outweghed by my satsfacton and exctment. Loong bac on t now have begun to wonder f maybe the owner of these dogs (my frends mum) was a zoophle as well. T seems that both dogs new very well what they were dong wth a human someone had traned them – the spanel clmbng up onto me so that could suc hs coc – the red setter lyng on hs bac hth hs legs spread after he had been aroused ready for a woman to do some dlldoggng – and the red setters medate reacton to my beng half naed and on all fours. Hmmmmmmmmmmm!